I was at my mother in law’s trailer on our annual family vacation. My daughters were 2 and 4 at the time. My oldest has really taken a liking to crafts, but lately, painting rocks. I decided to let both of them paint outside in a controlled environment. My husband and mother-in-law couldn’t believe I’d let my 2 year old paint with acrylic paint. Paint was on the plastic picnic table, on her tummy, on her knee, on her hands, down her arms, and in her hair. As the colors mashed together in the small containers, my inner artist started to panic. “We need to dip, paint, rinse, dry, then choose different color” the responsible side of me tried to warn this little inexperienced 2 year old. Paint globbed on small rocks, colors running down the sides. I pushed all my panic and ocd aside and finally embraced these beautiful works of art as a memory.
Painting rocks with a 2 year old. Was it messy? Yes. Was it disorderly? Yes. Did she have fun? Yes! Were fun memories made? Yes! Will I know next time to not trust my 2 year old with paint? Uh – yeah!
But where everyone from the outside saw a mess, I stood there and saw a bunch of mini masterpieces. A beautiful disaster.
“We love him, because he first loved us.”
1 John 4:19 KJV
People judge our lives as an outsider looking in. They see all your mistakes, failures and short comings. All your flaws. All your lies you’ve told. Your broken promises. But despite how awful your past has been, everything you’ve ever done wrong- your past doesn’t have to be this big ugly secret you have to hide in fear others won’t love you or accept who you are today – right at this moment. Jesus has forgiven you! You are covered under His blood! You are bought with a price! You are Jesus’s child! Where everyone sees your worst – Jesus sees a beautiful disaster. He might not have chosen the paths you’ve gone down, but He still lead you back to Him! He is looking from afar and knows exactly what you’re destined to do! Your bad places are for you to reach others in that place so they can be saved. You’ve been through the same thing they’re going through now, so you can bring them out darkness into His marvelous light.
“For I know the plans and thoughts that I have for you,’ says the LORD, ‘plans for peace and well-being and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope. Then you will call on Me and you will come and pray to Me, and I will hear [your voice] and I will listen to you. Then [with a deep longing] you will seek Me and require Me [as a vital necessity] and [you will] find Me when you search for Me with all your heart. I will be found by you,’ says the LORD, ‘and I will restore your fortunes and I will [free you and] gather you from all the nations and from all the places where I have driven you,’ says the LORD, ‘and I will bring you back to the place from where I sent you into exile.’”
Jeremiah 29:11-14 AMP
If you can go through it and succeed – so can they!
Your testimony is a test. When you pass, you give others hope.
Your life story doesn’t have to be perfect from beginning to end. It just has to show people who are lost that it is possible to get back on the right path to Jesus.
God doesn’t love you because you are perfect. God loves you because you belong to Him. You are His child. There is nothing you can do to make Him love you less. There is nothing you can do to make Him love you more. There is nothing you can do to make Him forget you. You are precious in His sight. He loves you unconditionally. He loves you so much, He thinks you are to die for.
“But God clearly shows and proves His own love for us, by the fact that while we were still sinners, Christ died for us.”
Romans 5:8 AMP
“By this the love of God was displayed in us, in that God has sent His [One and] only begotten Son [the One who is truly unique, the only One of His kind] into the world so that we might live through Him. In this is love, not that we loved God, but that He loved us and sent His Son to be the propitiation [that is, the atoning sacrifice, and the satisfying offering] for our sins [fulfilling God’s requirement for justice against sin and placating His wrath]. Beloved, if God so loved us [in this incredible way], we also ought to love one another. No one has seen God at any time. But if we love one another [with unselfish concern], God abides in us, and His love [the love that is His essence abides in us and] is completed and perfected in us. By this we know [with confident assurance] that we abide in Him and He in us, because He has given to us His [Holy] Spirit. We [who were with Him in person] have seen and testify [as eye-witnesses] that the Father has sent the Son to be the Savior of the world.”
1 John 4:9-14 AMP
So even though you may think your life is a mess, your Heavenly Father thinks it’s a beautiful disaster.